That Day (The Wedding)

That day

It was cold and clear

The balcony upstair

Was our hideout

We waited for the beautiful

To happen

And I sat

Feeling in my veins

Vast and calm

Rich beyond reckoning

With the wealth of the intangible

Please Say You’ll Dance

Oh Darling

Please dance with me.

I need you by my side.

The stars call our names.

Don’t fear the heights,

In the heavens we will be safe.

This cosmic dance floor is ours.

We will learn to fall,

We will learn to fly,

Angels hold our souls.

 

I wait for you

With hushed soul

And heart afire.

I can not contain

My eagerness

To know your name,

To kiss your face,

To dance this life of nights away with you.

 

Please say you’ll dance with me.

Bleeding Eyes

Do your eye feel like bleeding?
Mine do.
From all the things I have been forced to see.
Crimson tears
Leave scars in my soul.
Time heals slowly.
And my eyes are bleeding with my heart.

Broken Man

Here I stand
A broken man.
Patched together
By mothering love.
Held together
By friendship’s strength.
Held up
By guiding fathers.
I’ve learned to work
By working hard.
I’m learning lessons
Only a broken heart can teach.
I’m no where near done
Growing up,
But I am done
Playing the part of a fool.
You will see me crawl.
You may see me fall.
But the only certain defeat
Is to stay down.
So rise,
Rise again my soul.
And fight on.

Cold King

An icy king
Sits enthroned
In my soul.
In one hand
My heart he holds.
In the other
All the dreams
I’ve ever had.
He sinks his claws deep.
I wither-
And shiver-
Alone in the night.
Cast out
Into a wasteland.
I am dying.
An orphan crying.
A warrior,
Done trying.

I hate him-
This frozen king.
He slew my joy.
Took away
All that I could feel.
Caged my rage.

That’s the worst,
Being rageless.
Once I had nothing
To rage against.
I just had
Purposeless dreams
Of destruction.
Now I would burn
Against this tyrant.
Apathy.
If I could just
Find the key
To the cage
That holds my rage.
I could rise up
And throw down
The cold king
That holds me
Captive.
But I don’t care.
Not enough.
Not anymore.

(Yet deep inside,
A quiet voice whispers
A solemn vow.
I swear I will find
My anger again.
Reforged with purpose,
I’ll face my apathy
And spit
In his gaunt face.
I will slay him,
This I swear.
This I swear.

Through the Mask

It’s hard to see
Through the mask.
Narrow slits
Stifle vision,
Skew the world.
Only seeing a portion
Of the glorious whole.
Getting lost in the misery
That you choose,
Instead of the sunlight
Pouring over you.
The mask hides the you
I know is in there.
I’ve seen it shine through.
Glimpses of beauty,
Enough to melt the soul.
Taking my breath away
Before the dreary grey
Swallows the brilliance.
Like a Queen wrapped
In a beggar’s rags.

Guide

Dance in the darkness.
Light spills from your fingers.
Shred the shadows.
Your eyes shine like stars.

Your feet draw a pattern.
Your steps follow a narrow way.
There is music in your soul,
That leads you to eternity.

I can not hear the music,
The melody that guides you.
But I can see it in your dance,
I can feel it in your rhythms.

Peace in the chaos.
Quiet strength in madness.
You walk like a giant,
In a land of small men.

Teach us the music,
That we may hear it too.
I will watch and learn,
Till heaven fills my soul.

Remember When

The child in me
Spoke the other day
Said “Remember when,
Life was simple
Simply because you trusted?”
And I shushed it tenderly,
But not without a tinge of regret,
Because grown up Me knew
That life didn’t work that way.
I went back to my worries
And the endless grind.

Then the child said,
With a little more force:
“Remember when,
You were carefree
Because you knew
That someone truly cared?”
And I told it sternly,
But not without some guilt
To be quiet.
It didn’t know what I knew,
And it shouldn’t judge.
But my soul was gloomy now.

Finally the child screamed.
Desperately crying out:
“Have you forgotten?
That Grace keeps you breathing
And with every breath,
You march toward death?
You live in stress
In anxiety and fear,
Because you have forgotten
That you are loved and cared for.
Remember! Remember now.
Before it is too late.
For time is running out”

Then the tears,
Welling in the eyes
Of the Child-Me,
Poured out of my soul
And the Grown Up Me wept.
Then I remembered a time
When I trusted
And knew I was loved.
So I bowed my head
To ask for strength,
That I might simply trust again.

Melancholy

Oh! The melancholiness I feel,
Clouding my soul.
Reminding me
I am not as strong as I think.
Tears push at the gates of my eyes.
Welling up from the pit of my soul.
Oh Sadness!
Oh Sorrow!
How you have taught me
To live with tenderness and strength.
Each embracing the other
Without shame.
Lovers finding comfort,
In the other’s arms.

Titan

I stand between earth and sky.
My sweat streaks the dust on my skin.
Breath comes heavily,
Ragged in my mouth and nostrils.
A fire burns in my eyes.
The child of the flame in my soul.
Tall above the weakness,
I smile at the futility.
I bend my shoulder to the weight,
And move mountains.